I would've be the most foolish man if I had let you walk pass me... My life would be so incomplete without you beside me... Our days together have not only bring me happiness but also memories that are so sweet... My feelings for you do not need much words to describe ...for I shall shower you with every bit of love I have for you on the journey down the future
Re-learn this world when I am around going throught it for 30 years? Yes indeed. So much for my naive thinking all these years that the world is spinning like a cute little merry-go-round riding on a pony and holding a candy on my hand. That could just be a little dream for a small kid...way too perfect.
So what's is the reality of where I am standing right now? It's not about whether we can adapt changes, but rather is can we take the pain of changes. A friend once told me, nothing is permenant. I agreed to that, everything!...including human...can change in a fortnight. When your trust can be totally wreck, it's painful arn't it? 3 years! I took 3 full years to wake up from my naiveness and start to think...kinda long for me, but at least I've understand. Maybe I am blessed in some way in the past that makes me mentally weak all along...which contributes to all those pains I've got now? well maybe...
Lots of crazyness that happened, to me or to others...have really made me feel a little uneasy of this world. Was it the world itself degraded itself or was it intented to be made this way? It just too absure to me.
I guess I am just not to used to some cruel reality...learning to live with it, and trying my best to cling on the hope that the world can be pure and wonderful someday! Removed all sins from human natural! And everyone live for the sake of bring happiness to others! ~dreaming? oh I guess so...lol (...and dun misunderstand, I am not holy in any way!)
What Gabriel need (wishlist for God to see):
"True friends" + "A lovely wife" + "A wonderful family"
Yeah, it’s freaking good…shoke. All those aches and pains, it just thrills me day by day awaiting my pretty babes (muscle) arrival. Woo~ I just can’t help feeling excitied! Hahahaha~ I love pure strength! Come’ on I need more!
My dream body shape and my idol Crown J~ such perfection of the gift by god!
Bottling up our real feeling feelings towards fact doesn’t make us a better person. Being transparent in the eyes of others doesn’t make us feel good. To expect others to be sensitive we have to be sensitive in the first place. Trying to act as the world is all fine when we are on the verge of breaking down makes our heart shattered. Lastly distancing is not a good solution but it just hurt endlessly and causing more hate to the cause…
Finally 想通了! Life is Party BABY! There’s always party going on…and it doesn’t matter it’s fun or not…just join in and enjoy! No one may remember us after it ended, but everyone have fun isn’t it. Make smiles, that’s what life is meant for!
So…let me introduce myself once again:
I am Gabriel… I am 30 years old…cool right? =) I love RnB and Hip Hop and specifically Rap music… I love to talk nonsense when I am hype… I love silence when I am tired… I hate books, Yeah BOOKS!... I love ghostly story and science friction movies… I am blur, so what! Hhahaha, that’s me *I love myself*… I hate it when ppl quarrels, even if it dun involves me..just like peace… I am bad in words, but well I am one harmless beings dude… I am vain, even thought I am not good looking…. I always hope to be taller and having a smoother complex… I hate vegetables and fish… I love basketball and gym and I love simple gaming… I hate alcohol and I seemed to be allergic to it anyways… I never despise ppl but I despise those who did… I dun like to flare up, even if I do no one will sees it… I dun smoke cause I dun really like to put poison into my lung!... I hate jogging and running, seriously!... I scare most, not death but being fat~ahahah… I might be sensitive like a girl sometimes, cause I have higher female hormo *NOTE: I am not a gay nor ah gua!*…just some hormo ok! =/ I have a kinda low blood pressure, maybe that’s y I dun flare up often… I am shy sometimes but I can get real wild later! XD…
Alright, that’s so much for the fresh start. It’s how we face life that makes us happy. I always hope for a hand when I am down with tonnes of troubles but it’s kinda hard to find one sometimes (*I truely wanna give a big THANKS to those who had gave me a pat to move ahead thought =D*). Ok so the solution is “put down everything and give ya butt a pat! Tell myself “go on, life is more than what you’ve been through…a lot more are worth to explore ahead than sitting here crying over thing”.
The magic word when things makes you sad: “I dun care” *splendid* Hahahaha!
…the me that is crazy …..the me that is crappy ……the me that smiles always …….the me that sprout my truest thoughts ………the me that say the lame but sincere joke
and be accepted as me…I do wish…
~ Sadness, depression, uncontrollable breakdown are just coming so often…pre-symptom of “self disorder”? Yeah…just gotta hang on as far as I can…
Gabriel? Eric? Robert? Glen? …I dunno, non of these names sound familiar to me anyway,,,
Nothing is gonna change even when I am sad… Nothing is gonna change even if I try hard… The only thing I can do is to accept it… The only one I could rely on is Gab… Being kind will only hurt myself… Being selfish will only hurt others… I shall stay clam and see what’s the worst that will come on me
…and walk through it with my cold and frozen heart …
Always felt that being alone is the most peaceful moment in this world, but it turns out to be the saddest thing. Always felt that being quiet is the safest bet sometimes, but it just gives the most terrible feeling. It just like walking nearer and nearer to the journey of loneliness…maybe I had did some terrible sins in my past life that leads me to such judgment now. Quite cold about life now, nothing much to hoped for in fact…it seems that I’ve lost everything which once brought so much laughter to me…things have changed, and changed my life drastically. I will be forced to accept my fate as I dun see any solution here~ I tried to smile but it just a little tough for me right now…
kimi ga “sayonara” mo tsuge zuni dete itta ano hi kara kono machi no keshiki ya nioi ga kawatta ki ga suru yo kimi no subete ni naritakute kawashita yakusoku mo hatasarenai mama omoide ni kawatte shimau
hitori kiri de kimi ga naita ano toki sugu ni tonde ikeba ima mo mada kimi wa boku no yoko ni ite kureta? dekiru naraba mou ichido iitakatta "daisuki" tte... kimi he no omoi mo afure dashita kotoba mo ima wa todokanai
kimi wa doko ni ite dare to doko ni ite donna fuku wo kite nani shite waratterun darou? boku wa koko ni ite ima mo koko ni ite kimi to futari de mata aeru to shinjite iru yo
Oh... kawarazu omotte iru yo Oh... kimi dake...omotte iru yo
musun da kami no ushiro sugata ni kimi wo kasanete furikaeru mishiranu dare ka ni nando mo gakkari shita chakushin ga aru tabi kimi no namae kitai shitari kakko warui mainichi bakari sugite iku yo
"wasurerarenai" no ga uso de hontou wa "wasuretakunai" dake “tsuyogari” ga boku-rashisa naraba mou iranai kimi ga inakya mou nido to kanjinai "shiawase" tte... dou ganbatte mitemo kobore ochita namida wa sugu ni tomaranai
kimi wa doko ni ite dare to doko ni ite donna fuku wo kite nani shite waratterun darou? boku wa koko ni ite ima mo koko ni ite kimi to futari de mata aeru to shinjite iru yo
dakara ima koushite boku wa mata hitori kimi no namae yonderu… kore ijou setsuna sa wo dakishimete ikeru wakenadonai yo demo sore shikanai n dayo
kimi ga iru dake de kagayaite mieta ano goro wa nido to modotte wa konai kedo nani ga okotte mo nani wo ushinatte mo kimi wo aishita koto kesshite wasuretakunai
kimi ga doko ni ite dare to doko ni ite donna yume wo mite nani shite waratte ite mo zutto koko ni ite ima mo koko ni ite kimi to itsu no hi ni ka aeru to shinjite iru yo
Oh... kawarazu omotte iru yo Oh... kimi dake...omotte iru yo
Oh... kawarazu omotte iru yo Oh... kimi dake...omotte iru yo
English Translation
Since the day you left without saying "goodbye" I felt that the scenery and scent of this town has changed My promise of wanting to change to become your everything Has completely changed into a memory without being fulfilled
Those times when you were crying by yourself, if I had flown straight to you Would you still be by my side now? If I were able to, I'd tell you again that "I love you" But my overflowing feelings for you, and my words, cannot reach you now
Wherever you are, whoever you’re with wherever you are, Whatever you're wearing, whatever you're doing, you'll be laughing, right? I'm here. Even now, I'm right here Believing that the two of us will meet again.
Oh... These feelings won't change. Oh... You're the only one...I'm thinking of.
Your back appearance, with your hair tied up, I'd repeatedly mistaken someone else for you until they turned around; I was disappointed many times Whenever there’s mail, I expect to see your name I feel stupid(1) everyday that goes past
“I can’t forget" is a lie; in reality it's only "I don't want to forget" If "pretending(2)" is a quality of mine, I no longer need to do it If you aren't here, I won't be able to feel "happy" again No matter how hard I try, my tears continue to fall, they just won't stop
Wherever you are, whoever you’re with wherever you are, Whatever you're wearing, whatever you're doing, you'll be laughing, right? I'm here. Even now, I'm right here Believing that the two of us will meet again.
So now I'm still alone like this, calling your name… I don't have a reason to embrace this pain anymore But I can't help doing it
Only you, just by being there, could make me shine But those times will never return again No matter what happens, no matter what I’ve lost I never want to forget that I've loved you
Wherever you are, whoever you’re with wherever you are, Whatever you're dreaming of, whatever you're doing, please be laughing I will always been here; even now, I'm right here Believing that one day we will meet again.
Oh... These feelings won't change. Oh... You're the only one...I'm thinking of.
Oh... These feelings won't change. Oh... You're the only one...I'm thinking of.
A new mv by Untouchable featuring Narsha from Brown Eye Girl! The girl in the mv is not Narsha but "Na Hye Mi"! she is indeed pretty in the mv...hahaha. A little mature + gentle + a beautiful voice...=)
Printer Printer Printer! Days without printer are so troublesome! Have to wake up earlier to school to print stuff and when I need to print out reference I cannot do so. Luckily IT Show is finally coming, woo~ hope I can get some budget printer to “tarhan” for my remaining semester. Lol!
Guess I’ve got a little adapted to the performance stage, it’s better to polish up our skills before we face the real challenge in life. A career that everyone is assigned since the first day. Haha, these days most of the time is just “me” and Gabriel. Hope we can work together fine from now on. Oh Alright, maybe a little help from god as well. What is the most tiring thing in life? For me I would say…explanations, something that is so ma fan. =/
Gabriel’s way of life: It’s about [ask or trust]: “ask when you don’t trust” or “If you trust don’t ask”…no point leaving others guessing when happened for something they don't know. That is how misunderstanding starts.
…when we have to take a breath after a long journey, I have a dream, which is to reach the ending point. Just a little tired…shall be on my way after a little rest…
Know what! It’s Fri!...shoke shoke shoke, end of the tiring week and time for a little recharge! Just wanna sing “I dun care eh eh eh eh eh~” hahah, troubles are nothing when we dun bothers, so sch aside for now…homework on table for now…and weekend is coming as well. Humm…can’t wait for gyming later, I am gonna chiong ahhhh.
-_- omg why the workers doing the upgrading outside my house so noisy?!?! Gonna faints with their non stop conversation. But something to note, well done on the laying of concrete on the floor, it so freaking smooth and perfect! That’s what I call workmanship.
