Put down everything! …and start all over again!

Finally 想通了! Life is Party BABY! There’s always party going on…and it doesn’t matter it’s fun or not…just join in and enjoy! No one may remember us after it ended, but everyone have fun isn’t it. Make smiles, that’s what life is meant for!

So…let me introduce myself once again:

I am Gabriel…
I am 30 years old…cool right? =)
I love RnB and Hip Hop and specifically Rap music…
I love to talk nonsense when I am hype…
I love silence when I am tired…
I hate books, Yeah BOOKS!...
I love ghostly story and science friction movies…
I am blur, so what! Hhahaha, that’s me *I love myself*…
I hate it when ppl quarrels, even if it dun involves me..just like peace…
I am bad in words, but well I am one harmless beings dude…
I am vain, even thought I am not good looking….
I always hope to be taller and having a smoother complex…
I hate vegetables and fish…
I love basketball and gym and I love simple gaming…
I hate alcohol and I seemed to be allergic to it anyways…
I never despise ppl but I despise those who did…
I dun like to flare up, even if I do no one will sees it…
I dun smoke cause I dun really like to put poison into my lung!...
I hate jogging and running, seriously!...
I scare most, not death but being fat~ahahah…
I might be sensitive like a girl sometimes, cause I have higher female hormo
*NOTE: I am not a gay nor ah gua!*…just some hormo ok! =/
I have a kinda low blood pressure, maybe that’s y I dun flare up often…
I am shy sometimes but I can get real wild later! XD…

Alright, that’s so much for the fresh start. It’s how we face life that makes us happy. I always hope for a hand when I am down with tonnes of troubles but it’s kinda hard to find one sometimes (*I truely wanna give a big THANKS to those who had gave me a pat to move ahead thought =D*). Ok so the solution is “put down everything and give ya butt a pat! Tell myself “go on, life is more than what you’ve been through…a lot more are worth to explore ahead than sitting here crying over thing”.

The magic word when things makes you sad: “I dun care” *splendid* Hahahaha!
















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There are times…

when we are sad, and tears rolling down our frowning cheek. It seems that there is no other way but to feel surrounded by the blue clouds.

when we feel lost in the sea, prick by the little times we had in our memories. It seems that all the happy moments have become nothing.

When we sees nothing in the beautiful path ahead, all we could touch…was the empty wind that blew across.

BUT…



There are many reasons to make ourselves happy…it works for most

…but not for me


~Gabriel

If I can ever smile as "me" again...

If I can ever be…

…the me that is crazy
…..the me that is crappy
……the me that smiles always
…….the me that sprout my truest thoughts
………the me that say the lame but sincere joke


and be accepted as me…I do wish…


~ Sadness, depression, uncontrollable breakdown are just coming so often…pre-symptom of “self disorder”? Yeah…just gotta hang on as far as I can…


Gabriel? Eric? Robert? Glen? …I dunno, non of these names sound familiar to me anyway,,,

Face it, Gab!

Nothing is gonna change even when I am sad…
Nothing is gonna change even if I try hard…
The only thing I can do is to accept it…
The only one I could rely on is Gab…
Being kind will only hurt myself…
Being selfish will only hurt others…
I shall stay clam and see what’s the worst that will come on me

…and walk through it with my cold and frozen heart …

~Gabriel

失去的快乐

不了解为何自己开始变得冷淡，所有的笑声已渐渐的变成回忆。所有的痛楚，也只能自己隐藏。不想让回忆占据所有希望，但每天醒来的早晨，都会带着阵阵的悲伤。也许那是昨日所残留的哭泣。不断的安危自己，告诉自己失去的一切是不能挽回的。已不在的从前，让每一天变得承重。迷失的感觉不经把我扔向悬崖，还封闭了我的世界。所有的笑容和快乐，其实是掩盖哭泣的面具。摘下面具的那一刻，留下的都是眼泪的痕迹。














虽然变得有点坚强了。。。但与现实的拔河始终无法停止。会有天使出现的那么一天吗？。。。把所有伤痕默察掉。

Gabriel~