Delicated for Dear...

I would've be the most foolish man if I had let you walk pass me...
My life would be so incomplete without you beside me...
Our days together have not only bring me happiness but also memories that are so sweet...
My feelings for you do not need much words to describe
...for I shall shower you with every bit of love I have for you on the journey down the future















*mucks*

~Gabriel

Re-learn the world,yeah...

Re-learn this world when I am around going throught it for 30 years? Yes indeed. So much for my naive thinking all these years that the world is spinning like a cute little merry-go-round riding on a pony and holding a candy on my hand. That could just be a little dream for a small kid...way too perfect.

So what's is the reality of where I am standing right now? It's not about whether we can adapt changes, but rather is can we take the pain of changes. A friend once told me, nothing is permenant. I agreed to that, everything!...including human...can change in a fortnight. When your trust can be totally wreck, it's painful arn't it? 3 years! I took 3 full years to wake up from my naiveness and start to think...kinda long for me, but at least I've understand. Maybe I am blessed in some way in the past that makes me mentally weak all along...which contributes to all those pains I've got now? well maybe...

Lots of crazyness that happened, to me or to others...have really made me feel a little uneasy of this world. Was it the world itself degraded itself or was it intented to be made this way? It just too absure to me.

I guess I am just not to used to some cruel reality...learning to live with it, and trying my best to cling on the hope that the world can be pure and wonderful someday! Removed all sins from human natural! And everyone live for the sake of bring happiness to others! ~dreaming? oh I guess so...lol (...and dun misunderstand, I am not holy in any way!)

What Gabriel need (wishlist for God to see):

"True friends" + "A lovely wife" + "A wonderful family"

...can I? can I? =/ dunno~


~Gabriel

I love training!

Yeah, it’s freaking good…shoke. All those aches and pains, it just thrills me day by day awaiting my pretty babes (muscle) arrival. Woo~ I just can’t help feeling excitied! Hahahaha~ I love pure strength! Come’ on I need more!

My dream body shape and my idol Crown J~ such perfection of the gift by god!

















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~Gabriel

It’s reaching the brim…

Bottling up our real feeling feelings towards fact doesn’t make us a better person. Being transparent in the eyes of others doesn’t make us feel good. To expect others to be sensitive we have to be sensitive in the first place. Trying to act as the world is all fine when we are on the verge of breaking down makes our heart shattered. Lastly distancing is not a good solution but it just hurt endlessly and causing more hate to the cause…

It feels sucky...seriously


~Gabriel

Put down everything! …and start all over again!

Finally 想通了! Life is Party BABY! There’s always party going on…and it doesn’t matter it’s fun or not…just join in and enjoy! No one may remember us after it ended, but everyone have fun isn’t it. Make smiles, that’s what life is meant for!

So…let me introduce myself once again:

I am Gabriel…
I am 30 years old…cool right? =)
I love RnB and Hip Hop and specifically Rap music…
I love to talk nonsense when I am hype…
I love silence when I am tired…
I hate books, Yeah BOOKS!...
I love ghostly story and science friction movies…
I am blur, so what! Hhahaha, that’s me *I love myself*…
I hate it when ppl quarrels, even if it dun involves me..just like peace…
I am bad in words, but well I am one harmless beings dude…
I am vain, even thought I am not good looking….
I always hope to be taller and having a smoother complex…
I hate vegetables and fish…
I love basketball and gym and I love simple gaming…
I hate alcohol and I seemed to be allergic to it anyways…
I never despise ppl but I despise those who did…
I dun like to flare up, even if I do no one will sees it…
I dun smoke cause I dun really like to put poison into my lung!...
I hate jogging and running, seriously!...
I scare most, not death but being fat~ahahah…
I might be sensitive like a girl sometimes, cause I have higher female hormo
*NOTE: I am not a gay nor ah gua!*…just some hormo ok! =/
I have a kinda low blood pressure, maybe that’s y I dun flare up often…
I am shy sometimes but I can get real wild later! XD…

Alright, that’s so much for the fresh start. It’s how we face life that makes us happy. I always hope for a hand when I am down with tonnes of troubles but it’s kinda hard to find one sometimes (*I truely wanna give a big THANKS to those who had gave me a pat to move ahead thought =D*). Ok so the solution is “put down everything and give ya butt a pat! Tell myself “go on, life is more than what you’ve been through…a lot more are worth to explore ahead than sitting here crying over thing”.

The magic word when things makes you sad: “I dun care” *splendid* Hahahaha!
















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There are times…

when we are sad, and tears rolling down our frowning cheek. It seems that there is no other way but to feel surrounded by the blue clouds.

when we feel lost in the sea, prick by the little times we had in our memories. It seems that all the happy moments have become nothing.

When we sees nothing in the beautiful path ahead, all we could touch…was the empty wind that blew across.

BUT…



There are many reasons to make ourselves happy…it works for most

…but not for me


~Gabriel

If I can ever smile as "me" again...

If I can ever be…

…the me that is crazy
…..the me that is crappy
……the me that smiles always
…….the me that sprout my truest thoughts
………the me that say the lame but sincere joke


and be accepted as me…I do wish…


~ Sadness, depression, uncontrollable breakdown are just coming so often…pre-symptom of “self disorder”? Yeah…just gotta hang on as far as I can…


Gabriel? Eric? Robert? Glen? …I dunno, non of these names sound familiar to me anyway,,,